Trying to say good bye

sometimes I miss you so bad..

sometimes I wishes it was like it used to be..

I try not to think of that too much..Thinking about it  makes it harder. It is better if I just..don't think at all.

It is better if I just..live. Not thinking too much.. Not worrying about things... just living.

I was starting to believe.. have faith that..love was real, because after show you who really I was..

You were still there...!!

And I tried to push you away..seriously tried..telling you my secrets..things I was shame about..and you would not leave.. I could not understand it! You were suppose to leave me.. like everyone always did.

There is so much to say..so many feelings..and no one around to trust.. no one will listen.. I am alone..just like I wanted..

Love you L.

Bye.