Feeling sad again

over thinking about things really make me sad.. have to stop doing this.
Still working on leave past behind..it is hard.. but I think I am doing good.

I will be sad a bit longer.. but I think I will be ok.. I hope I will be ok.

Back to life

I was out, on vacations for 2 weeks.. I had lots of fun.. Rested enough.. I should be back with new energies.. but when I got home.. I felt like I was just back to exactly where I was.. Felt nothing changed... I really hope it won't be the way I feel.. Really want things to change and hope they will actually change.
I feel a bit more mature.. I see some things in a different way now.. some are still the same. But it's ok.. evolution takes time.. that's what I am doing.. evolving.

Learning to let go

Like I said before in one of my post.. things change, things always change..
Things have to change.. I mean.. Things can't be the same forever, right?
It is ok to leave past in the past..but not forget it..we never have to forget our past,
where we come from..things we have learned, people we met, etc.

If things go back to like they used to be would be nice but.. yeah, things have to
change. We need to grow up, learn new things, live new experiences, etc.
That's what life is, right?
Being honest.. I didn't want things to change in case she suddenly wants to back
together but.. let's be realistic. That's never going to happen. And it is fine.. That is how
life is.. good things happen, then bad things happen.. we just need to learn to let things
go..like a little green jedi once said "train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose."
not just things.. also people, moments, feelings.. We need to learn to love the right way.
Not love feeling like the person belongs to you.. That's not what real love is... wanting the best
for them, not what you want from them.. Real love is.. letting go.

It is time to move on. Will never forget about her, but it is time to let go of those feelings.. those
memories.. and live. All these days..since she left.. I was sad.. just living for living..
Was like a robot who do things that suppose to do because they were suppose  to be
done.. but now it is time to live and.. see how the story ends. Maybe it will be a happy ending,
maybe it will be a sad ending.. whatever it suppose to be.. we need to find out.

I felt betrayed.. I felt sad.. I felt bad.. but I guess... That is just part of life, right? And we all
have to live those things. Good moments.. Bad moments.. Smile..Cry.. A mix of different feelings.

Life with Anosmia part 2

My family and I spent new year at grandma's house.. It was really nice have such new year party. I had a great time.. She lives in a city 2 hours far from my city.. we left around 8pm and we got there at 10:20PM, just to make the barbecue. It is kind of tradition that us, the kids, make the food. It was really tasty! Anyways..we ate, the watched the fireworks for almost 30 minutes, it was really long. I made my own little weird tradition, every new year, at midnight I spend it without shoes, naked feet. Anyways.. next day morning we had breakfast all together and I had the idea of make french toast. Some minutes later everyone goes all crazy saying it smells like smoke! and I was like... "really? maybe..maybe...NOO!!! my french toast!" I could not notice my french toast were burning. Everyone could smell it, even the little girls.. but I was like "damn."

I guess it is a very important sense.

------Something that happened to me today.

I am not afraid of many things..but dentist... I am a little girl when it comes to the dentist. I had pain in my mouth for 2 days and today I went to the dentist.. he had to take off one of my tooth, but the problem is that, the anesthesia kind of doesn't work on me. He needed to use a lot on me so it could work a little bit. It still hurts a lot when tried to take it off.. That's one of the reasons why I don't like going to the dentist.. it hurts too much.

I am feeling pain now.. I should go rest.